TWO : Working With My Hands

I'm so glad I love what I do. 

I love my classes I love making things, figuring things out, and building things from the ground up.

I spend days at a time in the studios and it really doesn't bother me because I love to do it. 

And the people are pretty awesome too.

You find the greatest people in an obscure major like metalsmithing. 

It wears me out sometimes but at least it's something that I love to do.
Metalsmithing makes me happy.

 

ONE: Music

It's always been there. I can always rely on it. 

I honestly think music makes the world go round. At least for me it does. 

I could never imagine a world without music. But I guess some people have to go without it. 

It's hard to think about how much used to be apart of my life. I'll admit it. I was a band geek in high school. 

I didn't really practice but the funny part is I was actually good. I even got the highest award my graduating year and had to conduct at graduation. It's hard to think about that now. It seems so long ago I thought that music would be the rest of my life and somedays I still wish it was. But I guess we can all dream. 

I can always find an excuse to listen to music. 

And somedays you feel like your shuffle knows you better than anything else. 

Music shapes my mood. Fills my heart. And puts things into words that I knew I never could. 

Music Makes Me Happy. 

To Be Simply Happy

It's hard when people around you start to realize how unhappy you are. No matter how much you try to cover it up, no matter how much you try to hide it. A couple nights ago I was faced by a phone call. Three of my good friends from back home called asking me how everything was. They were trying to force something out of me. They knew something was wrong. But even as tears began to fill my eyes I could say nothing but "no, there's nothing wrong". I know when there's something wrong but I try my hardest to cover it up.
My name is Angie and I have depression.
This is no new standing, I'm very aware of it. A year ago I lost a very dear friend of mine. I went nights without sleep and my head was sore with so many thoughts and worries. One day my headache was so bad I just felt like I had to get something out of it. So that very day I started a journal. I called it "The Things That Make Me Happy". So every once in a while whether it was something small to something big, someone I knew or someone that inspired me I would write about it. Anything that made me happy. My headache went away and I finally slept through the night so it certainly helped. So this is what this blog is dedicated to. The Things That Make Me Happy. Focusing that energy that puts together a happy life and hopefully more smiles will follow.