It's hard when people around you start to realize how unhappy you are. No matter how much you try to cover it up, no matter how much you try to hide it. A couple nights ago I was faced by a phone call. Three of my good friends from back home called asking me how everything was. They were trying to force something out of me. They knew something was wrong. But even as tears began to fill my eyes I could say nothing but "no, there's nothing wrong". I know when there's something wrong but I try my hardest to cover it up.
My name is Angie and I have depression.
This is no new standing, I'm very aware of it. A year ago I lost a very dear friend of mine. I went nights without sleep and my head was sore with so many thoughts and worries. One day my headache was so bad I just felt like I had to get something out of it. So that very day I started a journal. I called it "The Things That Make Me Happy". So every once in a while whether it was something small to something big, someone I knew or someone that inspired me I would write about it. Anything that made me happy. My headache went away and I finally slept through the night so it certainly helped. So this is what this blog is dedicated to. The Things That Make Me Happy. Focusing that energy that puts together a happy life and hopefully more smiles will follow.
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